on Death and Dying

I have been thinking about death a lot lately.  I’m not sure why.  I’m not scared to die.  Not because I believe that I will be lifted into the devine light yadda yadda, but because I don’t.    I believe that when we die, we cease to exsist.  Period.  So really, there is not reason to be scared.  But it does make me sad.  The thought of being no more, is sad.  No more family,  no more food.  No more birds and bees to watch in my front yard.  No more books! Can you imagine no more music?  But I digress.  I have become almost obsessed with the thought that one day something will happen and suddenly I’ll be dead.  I’ve added so much detail onto this, that I’m sure it will be a car accident.  At an intersection.  I’m trying to not let this become a full blown phobia.

My Sesame Soba noodles from Trader Joes are slightly bland today.  Odd, but tasty.  Last night for dinner I had a mini smorgaasbord.  I cooked up some crispy cucumber wontons, some sticky rice cakes, some Mushroom Spinach turnovers and Red Pepper / Carrot soup.  Three out of four from Trader Joes, and one homemade.  Quite a tasty dinner!

I need to learn how to do tire pressure readings.  One of those quirky things that I just don’t seem to do quite right.

I also brought microwave popcorn for snack to terrorize the rest of the building.

Is everyone totally hooked on the Family Feud game on Facebook?  Crazyness.

Been watching some renovations going on a block away from my house.  I think they’re putting in an Ice Cream place.  Could be scarey.

Just found out that they’re also putting in a bikini bar down the street from me.  Only annoying to me because it could have been something else that I would like to patronage!   I don’t think a bikini bar is going to be a prime place for a healthful minded vegetarian.

Lunch is done!  Off to work.



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  1. I’m lucky I don’t yet have a laptop or internet at home. I know I’d be on Family Feud like brown on rice if I let myself start. For some reason, I’ve always loved that game. Bizarre.My lunch was delicious – whole wheat penne with tomato sauce plus green beans and cauliflower. Cauliflower is amazing! I never knew how awesome it could be (probably because though I like my broccoli firm and tender, I like my cauliflower practically dead)! Life (while it lasts) is good.

  2. I’ve had the death conversation with myself a lot lately too.  I don’t know what I believe is going to happen after life but if we just ceaseFamily Feud..I’m a dolt…remember that ice cream place MB took us to…mmmmmmm

  3. @Ninasusan – OH!!!!  I forgot about that place.  That was so so good.

  4. A very insightful, inward looking post, Tracy !! 

  5. With the diabetes diagnosis, I have thought more about my own mortality too… its unnerving, because I still have a 13 yr old… so I don’t like to think of going to soon… though I do believe in an afterlife, so I know there is more… I am just still attached to what I have here!

  6. @beadbrat -I think it is different when your children are older.  My youngest is 22 and I know they would be fine without me.

  7. I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t obsessed about death.  It has always been a struggle not to think about it.Didn’t you just take some test and it said you were going to live until you were 91?  I think you will.  I think you are going to live a long, long time.Your lunch sounds amazing but that may be because I’ve just had clear fluids and yellow jello today.  Haha!Have a good weekend!

  8. I also think often about death, and have the same sad feelings on being no more, and not experiencing the highs and lows life brings us.

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