I am most of the time a pretty decent person. I truly enjoy seeing people happy and it hurts me when I see people, even strangers, unhappy. I will say however that I am one of those people whose bark is far worse than her bite. I think when pushed I have the ability with words to cut someone to shreds. It’s because I’m observant. I note what areas on people are sensitive, and then most of the time do my best to never poke at that area, because as I said I am nice. I also made a promise to myself to never every blog publicly about something that made me angry without marking it private for 24 hours.
So maybe we’ll finish that conversation in a day or so.
Revenge – I think one of things that you learn as you get older is that revenge is really not a grown up decent person thing. So for instance take me, if you make me mad perhaps my first inclination is to reach out and grab you by the throat and since I can’t perhaps my second instinct is to take all those little things I know about you and do the exact thing that will hurt you. But I don’t. Because as I get older I realize that while I may have a flash of feeling a little happy squee inside at your pain I know in a few short days I will regret it. No matter how petty or self absorbed someone is they still deserve to get whatever happiness they can find and it will only diminish me if take that away from them.
One of the other things that you learn as you get older is that someone being nice to you may just be politeness, not that they really like you. I am very polite.