I almost never click on my Messages or “friend” Invites in Xanga anymore. It’s always filled with garbage. I can’t believe I get junkmail on a blog. Every once in awhile I look up and it’s eight messages and 14 invites and I’ll click and see a page of spammers and creepers and then I just close it. I’m sure I miss important people and I’m sorry.
I have been totally obsessed with only myself for awhile. It is intentional I think. I just needed to focus on getting my patterns back together. I am definitely a creature of habit so if I don’t have the base habits down I get nothing done, the days just slip away from me. I am very cognizant of time. I don’t like to have time that I am not fully focused on. I try to be aware of every minute. I’m sure that I did not explain that well. It’s really best described as a cliche, I want to be present in every moment.
Yesterday was just a bizarre day of things not working as they should. The only good thing about yesterday was I got more reading in (Odd Apocalypse – finished today) and I discovered for the rare moment that I want to buy music online Amazon was half the cost of Google Play. I’ve been listening to Tibetan Singing Bowls on Spotify for a year and finally broke down and bought it so I could have it on my iPod and phone.
I have had a very bad 10 days or so with my sad little radiated intestines. Yesterday was the first day in ten that I didn’t have to drug myself. YAY! For anyone who needs to do liquid meal supplements occasionally I’m a big fan of Muscle Milk; http://www.cytosport.com/products/muscle-milk/muscle-milk-powder. I nice strong blender a couple of cubes and a half a cup of coconut or almond milk plus a half cup of water and you’ve got yourself a good breakfast that will actually give you energy and nutrition without a mega dose of fiber like a lot of the “diet” liquid meals. I know, it’s not all natural but even a big old proponent of natural foods like me knows that sometimes you have to weigh the benefits vs the ideology.
I really need to do something productive today I think.