Today I was thinking about time. I think it’s accurate if I say that I never say that I wish time would go faster. I want to have every single moment and if my day feels like it lasts 36 hours so much the better. When I wake up at 1am and spend a half hour staring off into space I enjoy that time. That is a lovely time to just wander around your own brain and think thoughts. Just so there is no misunderstanding, I DO NOT enjoy the nights when I wake up every 20 minute for five minutes then fall back asleep. Five minutes awake is only long enough to think, “oh, I’m hot, oh my arm is asleep, my neck hurts, why I am awake?” and then back to sleep you fall.
When I’m stuck in traffic, I think of it as time that I get to listen to the radio. (MAN! I love XM!) I hear songs that I don’t have on my iPod, I get to flip around and hear music that’s new or that I have forgotten about.
When I’m in a long line at a grocery store it’s the perfect opportunity to look around at interesting people.
When I’m at the Doctors office and waiting this is really good time for game play on my iPod. Never enough time for games.
Sadly it’s hard to find really good time to read. Reading is special because it requires a certain set of circumstances. You have to be in the right mood, with not too many distractions, and a comfortable place to curl up.
This is not a result of my recent health issues. I have always felt this way. Well, maybe not always but for as long as I can remember. I really do enjoy everything about my life and I get frustrated that I can’t fit more things into my day.
Right now my evenings are filled with stuff. I have yoga, and the Y, and I’ve committed a couple of nights a month to some volunteer work. And of course there’s regular work. I mean I have a regular 40 hours a week schedule but I have email & IM 24/7 so I really have to keep eye on it. Luckily I can usually find wonderful things to enjoy at work as well.
I have other things I would like to do. I ordered a cheap plastic flute and a beginners book. I really have no natural ability to plan an instrument but I love the idea of learning it. If I can pick up any of the skill I will order a wood one. It’s the Native American kind that I want to play. It was so beautiful at the Yoga Retreat that I went to, that I think I have a picture of me sitting on my porch playing while all the woodland animals sit in my yard.
I am going on vacation at the end of this week. That’s a lot of moments to enjoy!!
I hope you remember to stop and find something to enjoy in what you’re doing right now.