My fitbit #Fitstats for 10/30/2013: 10,440 steps and 4.1 miles traveled. http://www.fitbit.com/user/22699W
Archive for October, 2013
Me and Yoga, or is it Yoga and I?
After a number of years, three? Four? I stopped doing yoga a couple of months ago. I was becoming very angry and frustrated every time I went to a session because I can no longer do some of the very basic poses. Was it the kidney disease? No.Thyroid disease? No. Cancer? No. Dizzying disease with multiple names? No. Nor was it the bursitis in my hips. Of all the stupid ass things to stop me from doing something that I loved it was the stupid freaking bone spurs! I cannot believe how much they have affected my life! So AGGRAVATING! I’ve had to stop wearing half my shoes, threw away my slippers, and stopped doing yoga. You just can’t stand barefoot with your foot firmly placed on the ground with tiny little spikes of bone on the bottom of your heal.
Having ranted all of that, I am going to go back tonight. I think I have resigned myself to starting over and learning a new way to do yoga. Of course since I stopped I have also added lymphedema to the mix and will now be wearing compression stockings, so no actual barefoot. Today I will try a foot brace over yoga socks, over compression stockings and see if I can keep my footing. I may have to learn to do a combination of Ballet & Yoga and only stand on the balls of my feet. Yollet? Ballga?
Yesterday I posted on Facebook how someone had made me mad last week and I just couldn’t seem to let it go. The comments made me laugh. There are some personality traits that I find very difficult to accept in other people. One of them being the person who constantly thinks how “unlucky” they are because they don’t have things that other people have. Well as someone who has really and truly never been given anything in my life I resent it more than I should when that is directed at me as envy with the intent of making me feel guilty. It always makes me want to lash out and defend myself, which is not something you can always do, and for that personality type it wouldn’t make a difference anyway. No matter what I said, it wouldn’t make them realize that the choices they make are what determines their circumstances. It works out better for me when I can get to the point of feeling sorry for those people. They will never truly be happy because they will always be looking for someone to give them something. They can never feel a real sense of accomplishment because they will always immediately be looking at how much more they could have if they just got “lucky” like everyone else. People like that tend to think that everything is harder for them because they can not really see other people clearly. They only see what they envy, never the work that the other people have put in to get where they are, or what they have.
I realize that this is my problem to deal with, not theirs. I always feel guilty about everything I do that benefits me, If I buy a pair of shoes, or take 90 minutes out of my day for yoga, or a workout. I am better about that but still not completely over it. Somehow if what I do does not directly benefit someone else than I am selfish and wrong. I know the roots of that particular trait and I bet my sister shares it.
Back to work!
I love this guy.
I know you’re thinking, scam! But I love the way he writes. I actually subscribe to his emails because he frequently talks about things I can apply in other parts of my life. I don’t want to change my career or turn all powerful, I have too much going on to worry about stuff like that, but I do like it when he tells me I’m procrastinating or gives me little motivational pep talks about my focus.
The blog that is up today is about how you learn new skills. Very informative. I liked this:
“One of my friends (and former clients), Tim Grahl, has a great rule of thumb:
“I assume that future Tim is going to be stupid, lazy, and make bad decisions, so I set up my environment to prevent that from happening.”
I did that with exercise. I took about two weeks to make sure my little area that I exercise in has exactly every thing I might need. I keep hand towels on the treadmill. I keep a box of tissue next to my bike (my nose always runs during a workout) I have a music stand in front of my gazelle to hold my tablet. I keep a set of earbuds in that room all the time so I always have music immediately available. I keep an extension cord next to the treadmill in case my tablets battery is low. I made it was hard as possible for me to talk myself out of working out.
Had a nice weekend. On saturday my husband and I went to Dearborn MI and the Henry Ford Museum.
After wandering for a couple of hours we went down the street to the apparently famous Buddys Pizza.
then home and later met my sister an her Doug for dinner.
Sunday was a 2nd round of walnut picking then a few hours of walnut cleaning!
I’m eating my emergency potato / spinach / Quinoa soup for lunch today because instead of bringing my carton of pumpkin soup from Trader Joes, I brought a carton of Pumpkin! I always have pumpkin in the house because it’s good for emergency healthier cakes.
I am getting my hair trimmed and foiled at a new place after work. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I seem to be some kind of bad luck charm to hair stylists.
Lunch is over! Back to my real Monday.