Today in the mail I received two things. One was a lovely gift from the nice lady in AZ. She made me cute hats for the winter. I will take pictures of them on my actual head after I look more presentable. 🙂 My hair is so thin that they will most certainly be welcome. You’ll see, they’re very cute. Thank you Betsy!
I also received a package that I purchased. It is lollipops. The other day I was lamenting the lack of roast beef flavored jaw breakers, so I went out looking for non-traditional flavors of candy. I walk around all the time with the most horrible taste in my mouth, and I really am overdosing on mint, and ginger and your basic fruit flavors. I wanted something that I can pretend is food.
I’ll let you know how it turns out!
Today at radiation there were two women in the waiting room and they were very loud. Things were running behind so I was there for a very long time. They spent much time talking about how lucky they were that their cancer had not spread to the lymph nodes. Cause you know, once that happens you’re done for! Geesh….I was happy to get the hell out of there!
Eight more abdominal radiations to go!
I’ve had this thought for an image stuck in my head for days so I finally used my forced sitting still to see if I could get it on paper. Draft #1. Yeah, I now proportions are off but it gave me a starting point. No symbolism there, right? My son ran out and got me a 36 pack of crayola colored pencils. Lovely.
Xanga is very very quiet this week. Change of seasons?
I dunno, but I am stuck in bed so you all better start posting!
The hair below is attached to my head! I flipped it over my eyes and realized how nasty it is getting. Once I’m done with Chemo and radiation I think I will probably end up getting the bottom three or four inches cut off to clean up the really bad damage.
That is all I have today.
I received an unexpected gift in the mail yesterday. Those are really the best kind aren’t they? I’ve been Christmas shopping for the last two’s weeks online so it’s been a constant parade of boxes to my door. I am very friendly with the postman just in case it’s raining some day But I digress! I received a beautiful floral envelope that was a half inch thick, and another beautiful yellow envelope. I opened my yellow envelope first because it was from Daisy. Daisy misses me and sends me cards about every two weeks. Every card calls me her angel so she always gets first opens. 😉
Anyway! Back to my floral envelope. It was so pretty that I didn’t want to open it. But, I did, come on! I don’t get that many presents! It was a sweet note from my friend Deb. Deb lives an hour away, and we’ve been in many of the same places, and at least on one occasion at the same time, but never met. I think this might be for the best because we’re the same age but she is tall and gorgeous and I think I might feel a little small and plain next to her! Deb included with her sweet note a pack of notecards for me to send out. And they have my name (spelled correctly) on them! I’m sure it’s yet another ego thing, but I love things with my name on them! Everyone should have a friend like Deb. We share very similar tastes in books as well so it’s been a very fulfilling long distance friendship. Thank you so much @Tnuts ! Of course now I have to send a note on them to my other friend @Ninasusan because of the picture on the notecards, so it’s a double gift.
Have a great day guys!
Pizza, Pizza, Pizza…
Vegetarian burrito with Queso Sauce & guacamole
Panera Pick 2 Sandwich Mediterranean Veggie Salad – any of the salads with fruit (meat on the side to take home to the dog)
Squash, potatoes, shallots, asparagus, Italian Egg Plant chopped up tossed with Olive Oil and some Sea Salt & Ground Pepper – roasted in oven
Bob Evans Harvest Omelet & a biscuit
Jimmy Johns Veggie Sub on French Bread, no mayo add mustard. Mostly for the bread.
Dr. MacDougalls Pad Thai Noodles
Green Giant Rice, Pea and Mushroom Medley.
My husbands Pasta and tomato sauce, with extra sauce & veggies.
Darla’s Thai – Gang Panang Veggie Curry
Baskins Robbins – Golden Ribbon Ice Cream..wait…I could probably eat that now.
DeGage – A little bit of everything. I’ll wait until my stomach is fully recovered for this and have a celebratory dinner here for end of treatment.
I’ve noticed over the last week or so that I feel like I’m constantly twitching. Like there are little tiny electrical impulses running in my legs or torso. It’s very odd.
I finally watched the most recent episode of The Walking Dead. I do like that show. I’m also reading the third book in a trilogy of Zombie books.
I bought a bra this evening. This is almost notable because of why. Somewhere I lost a bra. I am confused by this. Somewhere in a hospital or a hotel in Texas maybe? Just gone…
I also ordered some tights. Black and Brown. Someday soon I will go buy a plain brown skirt, and a plain black skirt and I will wear skirts with tights with quirky shoes for the winter. I don’t care if it doesn’t look right. I will do it anyway. Because Lois said I could. I have been Christmas shopping online for the last two weeks. I don’t want to have to worry about it in December. I want to spend December recovering and feeling good.
My sister gave me instructions to make what “they” call a pancake. it’s not. It’s one egg, and a half a banana with some cinnamon & vanilla. Toss it into a food processor then cook in like a pancake. It actually comes out like a beautiful crepe! I was so happy. One more food to add to my list of things I can eat. I doused it with maple syrup and it was so good. I can think of all sorts of other things to combine with it when I’m back on normal food. I would most certainly make it again.
I am mostly sitting here killing time until it’s acceptable for me to go to sleep. I am tired. I will not have my car tomorrow so I will stay home in the morning and my daughter will pick me up at 11:45 and take me for my radiation treatment and blood work and then she will take me to work. She is also going to come hang out with me all day on Thursday for chemo/radiation.
I have The Insider playing on my TV while I type this. I do not like it. I am not really a celebrity news kind of person.
I also made soup today for tomorrow. I threw a couple of vegetable bouillon cubes into a pan with a handful of frozen peas, frozen carrots, frozen turnip greens and turnips and a handful of rice. Then I let it cook until everything was mush. It might not taste the best but it should stay in my stomach.
Good Night! Sleep Tight.
Never made it out of bed today. Well, I guess that’s not true. I watched Amazing Race in the livingroom with my husband, and I played thirty minutes worth of poker with my son.
Mostly I stayed in bed and stared at the ceiling, I read a book, I listened to music. Sick, sick, sick, sick, sick. Each chemo takes longer to recover from, and each radiation treatment adds just a little more effect to the side effects.
Once again I am ever so grateful that I am in the position that when I feel this bad I can just curl up in bed and feel sorry for myself until I feel better. When I need something I can yell, or text, or send a message to my wonderful family and they will do for me, what I need to get through this.
Hopefully tomorrow things have settled down internally, and my brain is a little sharper. So much to do, so few working brain synapses.
I really need to remember this later and find a way to give back, specifically, and in the greater sense.